December Thirtieth Thoughts on Deep Cleaning

“What are your plans for today?” “I don’t know what do you need?” A not unusual conversation with my mother, usually ending in, ‘if you aren’t doing anything, maybe..’ Which of course I try to drop everything and take care of what she needs. Today, at least for the moment, she didn’t need anything, she was according to her, merely curious.

As I sit here, sipping yet another cup of coffee, mindlessly alternating between scrolling through social media and emails, I wonder that myself. The sky outside is deeply overcast, the clouds obscuring the clear blue that I know is there. The sunlight blocked from brightening the landscape, though it too, I know is there. Just hidden. As it my clarity of thought on what I need to be doing. I’ve been sneaking peeks out the window at the cats playing in the backyard. One is missing. Slash, an overly friendly male, has not shown up yet this morning. I hope that he isn’t going to be like Loudmouth who simply disappeared one day, never to reappear. Time alone will tell.

As I mentioned in my prior post, I took down and packed away all of the inside decorations yesterday.   Once I get that ginormous storage box closed and out of my living room, I will be able to begin the deep cleaning that I couldn’t do while the decorations were on display. As I sip coffee and watch for my missing cat, I ponder another type of deep cleaning. Incorrect thoughts.

We all do it to some degree, we may not even realize it at the time, but I believe we are all guilty. I also believe that we can correct our thought processes for the better. I know, that there are many different types of information out there explaining how to stop the wrong thoughts and fill our mind with the proper. Even with all the information in the universe at our disposal, none of it is going to work until we personally decide to change. Wrong thoughts become our comfort zone in a sense. We know them, we are accustomed to them, they have been with us for so long they are in a way an old friend. What we believe, we are. Even if what we believe is one hundred percent incorrect.

Personally my biggest battle is fear. The fear of the unknown. The fear of not fitting in, not being accepted. The fear of failing, even as I understand the real failure is when you don’t start. Even if what you start doesn’t work out as hoped, it isn’t failing, it is learning. The fear of what could, might, maybe happen. Instead of seeing what could, might, maybe happen as an adventure, I allow the fear to lock me away into doing nothing.

Which means that it is not only the house due for a deep cleaning. It is my very thoughts. I need to rid my beliefs of those fears and insecurities. I need to be accepting of the person I am and was meant to be. I can only become that person when I accept that I am not where I should be, and I alone am the one holding me back. Yes, there will be those who do not accept or understand, they are unimportant. They have their own journey to take, do not allow them to hinder yours as I need not allow them to hinder mine.

Fear is an anchor with a very short chain. It locks you into a certain area, trapping you from exploring and growing. It deceives you into believing it is keeping you safe, when in fact it is denying you life and living.

Cleaning away the debris that has gathered, the clutter that has collected is not an easy task. If one has been bullied, if one has been abused in any form, those injuries and memories are deep seated and lasting. A bruised soul that is slow to heal to the point of allowing a return to trust in life and living. The walls that have been built for protection may never fully come down, but doors and windows can be built to allow in the light. We can begin the journey toward being better. Toward being whole.

I know, that every step I take toward clearing away the clutter of wrong thoughts, I see the difference. With every thought where I believe in me, I feel the growth and increasing strength. Life is a journey. Life is an adventure. Life is to be lived, not feared. Not filled with mistrust and insecurities. It isn’t easy, there will be hills to climb, storms to endure, and battles to fight, but each make us stronger, each aid us in the deep cleaning of our minds. Ridding us of the thoughts that should never have been, should not be there now.

Life is a journey we all must take. As we travel, we need believe in our self and of what we are capable. Not allowing words of others to cloud our thoughts and heart.

About rebecca s revels

A writer, a photographer, a cancer survivor. An adventurer of the mild kind, a lover of the simple pleasures such as long walks and chocolate. A Christian unashamed of my faith and a friend who is dependable and will encourage readily. Author of three self published books with more waiting to find their way to paper. An advocate of good things, a fighter against wrongs.
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4 Responses to December Thirtieth Thoughts on Deep Cleaning

  1. cindy knoke says:

    Happy New Year Rebecca!

  2. Let’s believe in ourselves and believe in others a bit more as well. That would be a start

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