Clarity in the confusion.
Not long after I found myself no longer working a full time paid job, I purchased an inexpensive fitness band. It was simple, told the time, kept up with steps walked. It did a little more as far as whether I was walking, running, biking..but I only worried about the time and steps. It held a charge well, and was simple to charge when needed.Then, somehow I managed to lose it. I searched the house and car, but I decided I must have lost it on a hike up the mountain. After about two weeks I broke down and searched for something online. I found one that was on sale and had a coupon to boot. In the end, it wasn’t going to cost me much more than the one I lost.
When it arrived I was excited and happy to have a watch again. I thought. This thing is amazing in some ways, and confusing as anything in others. What makes it worse, the instructions that came with it are in a print size that appears more like little ant tracks than actual letters. Even when enlarged, the instructions written in a confusing manner.
This fitness band tells heartbeat, blood pressure, oxygen levels, steps, time and more. It does however, do strange things and odd times. In the middle of the night I’ve felt the vibration on my arm, waking me from sleep. Other times it vibrates and I look to see some odd number on the watch face. I’m sure there are reasons for the random numbers and grafts, but I have no idea what, nor how to stop it if possible.
Life can be like that.
We can be strolling along, minding our own concerns when we find ourselves faced with a random interruption. It may be something understood, it may be an out of the blue what on earth moment. Whether it is our health, jobs, standing in any status, friendships, relationships. All is well then suddenly we feel the random vibration of interruption.
There are many books written, many podcast and videos available to assist one find their way through these various mazes. Some clear speak, some that take serious concentration to understand.
Technology is like that, especially for me. Not only because it is changing and updating moment by moment but there are those-like me- who just can’t seem to get the full hang of all the amazing things that is technology.
Our faith can be like that.
There are so many different types of faith. So many different beliefs or unbelief. We think we have an understanding, only to have something said, read something, see something, and we find ourselves confused. Strolling along comfortably, strong in what we believe, then find ourselves in a moment of confusion as random happenings come along. Is this true, is that true, do I believe that or how do I understand what they are telling me here?Just as in life, there are many sources available to guide one through what ever storm they are facing at the moment. The issues is which are truthful, helpful guides to a strong faith, and which are distractions? Which point the proper way, and which are detours in the wrong direction? Even the Bible has been misrepresented in many ways, used and interpreted to say what individuals want so to push their agenda.
So how do we face the confusion? What do we do, when the instructions given are seemingly too confusing to understand? When those guides contradict each other in the directions to take, what do we do?
We do what is right. We do what is just. We do what is moral. We take the high road even if that road is the more difficult.
When I found myself without a job after spending thirty years, almost half of my life, there I was angry. I had a lot of dark emotions, feeling betrayed and discarded. (No, these did not include any form of retaliation) I began to realize that my feelings were pointless and I had to not only move on, but move on to better. After working so hard for so long finding myself in unexpected, early retirement took adjusting. The same when I found myself a widow.
Life in itself, is a moment by moment adjustment. We never know when we will find ourselves facing an interruption. The important thing, is discovering the correct paths to take forward. Individuals are different with different needs. We face struggles differently. What matters is finding our way through the valley to reach the summit.
A lot of my healing has come from being outside. Walking in nature, sitting and listening to the sounds of natural life around me. There is peace, calm, growth in that for me. Listening to music, reading, writing, artistic endeavors, all are methods of healing. Educating ourselves, improving our knowledge and using what we learn. All help.I also have found great strength and peace in prayer. There is a great peace to be found in giving my worries and concerns to God and leaving them with Him. It isn’t always easy, I want often to pick them up again, as if I can handle things better. As if they are security blankets of some sort, since I am so familiar with the feelings and status that comes with those concerns.
We all have an inner voice that speaks to us. That voice warns us, reminds us, teaches us, when we listen.
I can’t tell anyone how to handle their struggles. I can only speak for myself. I’m not an instructor. I seek to be an encourager. One that offers a kind word that will plant a seed of determination. One that will plant that seed of hope. One that will light a candle of belief that it will be better. One that shines a light in the dark, hoping to show the way out of the dark.