Faith over fear.
Here we are, days away from the holiday that is seeped in fear and spooky stuff and I’m repeating the above comment over and over on a mental loop. No, nothing has me overly afraid about Halloween. Tiny ghosts, goblins and various other personas wandering about in search of candy are not frightening. I don’t read books, watch any movies or programs that are considered frightening as my imagination would run wild and then yes, fear is a factor. Reading The Exorcist comes to mind here or the first Chucky movie. A movie of which I only saw snippets of but that was more than enough.
Fear is a horrible monster that works to destroy all peace of mind. I know, I am well acquainted with fear, its symptoms and side effects. Fear will go out of its way to imprison a person and prevent them from living a good life. While I still have a way to go, I am working on the faith over fear at every moment and event when I feel fear trying to creep in and do its damage. I also am working on always remembering the Bible verses that are there to calm and reassure. https://www.openbible.info/topics/do_not_fear
Currently though, it isn’t so much fear, but its close cousin that is my enemy. Worry. Worry and fear tend to go hand in hand. Worry over something and the fear that it is not going to end well.
I will admit, there are times when worry and fear have an ending that brings sadness. As in my husband’s and my brother’s death. It is a fact of life, sometimes sad things happen. Our worrying and being afraid could not, did not change the ending. It did however, make us miserable for a time.
Right now, my concerns are over that very expensive propane bill. Thoughts, considerations, possibilities run though my thoughts on how I can pay the thing. Considered and dismissed as not exactly feasible. Other people play and win the lottery, not me. I don’t have anything to sell. I don’t have a talent or way to make extra money. I could take a part time job, but after being with mom yesterday and watching her, I know I need to be here. No doubts, no questions. So I kept pondering and wondering what could shift to where. I was doing okay in my working on coming up with the payment, when yesterday I received not only an email, but a text about the bill. Okay. We’ll ramp this up a bit. I might can make payments, but I’m not positive. I’ll have to suck it up and make the call to see.
But there is a more important thing here. A more vital lesson to be learned, reminded of, remembered.
Don’t worry. Worrying will add nothing to life but will take much away.
I know, that the main thing I have to do right now, is to trust that God will provide as He has done so often before.https://biblehub.com/esv/1_kings/17.htm
There have been times when we were in desperate need, and provision came. I have no doubt that it will come again.