July Twenty-sixth; Worry not over the Unknown, but Live the Known.

Until you try, until you reach a point of no choice, your capabilities are unknown.

There are many times in my life where I was put into a situation of facing unknowns. I am a person who has become attached to the usual, the regular, the known. I park in the same or as close to the same places everywhere I go on a regular basis. I go the same routes. I buy the same foods. They are known, they are familiar, I know where I am going, where I have left the car, what the foods taste like. My conversations are usually with the same people because they know me and my usual topics. They smile, knowing me harmless. It is the known, it is the comfortable, it is the safe. It can be the boring, the mundane, the ordinary. Where oh where is the adventure?

My son gets very frustrated with me because I spend most of my time here at home. While a large part is that if I don’t go out, I don’t spend money I don’t have. The biggest part is, home is safe. Home is comfortable. Home is known. I have even gotten out of the habit of taking Bella and going hiking. That does need to change. I need to keep exercising for health reasons. That and the fact that staying home too much can become more than a habit. It can become so ‘safe’ that the fear of going out into the unknown world can manifest itself.

Let’s discuss health and facing the unknown. The recent Relay for Life event and another upcoming support for breast cancer event coming up this weekend has me recalling the battle I was fighting thirteen almost fourteen years ago.

Diagnosed months after turning fifty. The mammogram and following tests during the holiday season. My surgery followed not long after the new year. But I get ahead of myself.
My personal physician recommended my getting my first mammogram which at fifty I didn’t argue about. When I went for the exam, knowing it my first, the people there walked me through the process explaining as they went. They answered any questions and even smiled at my attempts at humor. Warning me I may be called back due to having nothing to compare with. I was, I went, they saw something concerning. I was scheduled to see another doctor who after her tests saw what they did. A needle biopsy came back with it being possible, a surgical biopsy confirmed I had cancer. When the diagnoses was made official, I sat on that examination table and bravely told the surgeon, “You know what it is, you know where it is, take care of it.” I was preparing to go on a journey I had not expected, I was headed into the unknown. I chose to see it as an adventure of the medical sort. The treasure at the end being good health. I knew though that however it turned out, it was a journey I wasn’t taking alone. I had already been reassured that God was with me. (That moment when I whined I didn’t want to do it and the Holy Spirit plainly chastised me. Yes, God does still speak.) My journey into the unknown took me through a lumpectomy and the removal of several lymph nodes. The cancer was small and all was removed. I did not need chemotherapy but I did need radiation.  I was also put on medication that I would need to take for several years.

 Surgery is a concerning thing, stretched out on that table as they wheel you down hallways and into a room lit up with a multitude of lights. I don’t remember going under anesthesia nor do I recall actually waking. One minute I was awake, then awake again. It was done.

 After healing enough, I had to see the oncologist about the radiation treatments. I had no idea where it was other than at the hospital. I had to find the parking garage, where to park, how to find the office I needed to be. Going into the unknown makes me a nervous wreck, I won’t lie. But I found everything. I managed to get signed up as needed. I got scheduled. I began the first of many treatments to come. Each time, walking into the known and yet unknown. All the while, having that life going on outside the treatments. All the while facing the unknown with my husband out of work. All the while wondering, yet trusting. Here I am now, thirteen, going on fourteen years later. Cancer free to my knowledge. I know I have to find a way to get a mammogram because of the fact I was once told, “You’ve had cancer, it is always possible for it to return.” I will not fear that unknown.

We don’t know, aren’t to know, what tomorrow will bring. We can plan and devise, and schedule, but nothing is ever really set in stone. Anything and many things can happen that will change those plans. Even and at times in the midst of the plans happening. Even now, each day for me (and for all) is an unknown. As Christians, we know that Jesus can return at any moment. The day, the time, unknown to all but the Father. Christians know, we need be ready, our life right with God, our name in the Book of Life. As Christians, we know we need not only believe in Christ, but live as Christ, showing Christ through words and more through actions. Not to worry over the unknown, just live the known.

About rebecca s revels

A writer, a photographer, a cancer survivor. An adventurer of the mild kind, a lover of the simple pleasures such as long walks and chocolate. A Christian unashamed of my faith and a friend who is dependable and will encourage readily. Author of three self published books with more waiting to find their way to paper. An advocate of good things, a fighter against wrongs.
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4 Responses to July Twenty-sixth; Worry not over the Unknown, but Live the Known.

  1. Dia Jae says:

    The known is a safe place. I like staying home, but I also like getting out every now and then. Right now, with the numbers rising, I don’t really want to go anywhere.

  2. Living the known…that’s a great phrase. I am doing that as best I can with God as my help.
    Currently going through chemo for breast cancer with radiation still to come. Encouraging to read you are so many years down the track and cancer free. That’s where I aim to be! Blessings. Jo

    • Thank you Jo. And He will help, in fact, it is His preference that we place our dependence and faith in and with Him. I was blessed to not have to endure chemo, but I did the radiation. That in itself can be rough. I have a cousin who has either finished on on the last rounds of treatments. God has brought her through. I have a friend who had a different type cancer, she was given months to live, God has brought her through a very difficult time and she is doing so much better. She takes every day – since she is already months beyond the allotted time- as a gift. He is with us and He does see us through.

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