This is my physical space, the place in which God has placed me. It is not however, a place for me to hide in seclusion and silence. It is a place that allows me time to study and learn. It gives me time for introspection and understanding. It offers me the opportunities to share the thoughts on my mind and heart. Such as the following.
In the space of a few moments, everything can change.
As a youth, I loved and feared the program, “Lost in Space” I loved following the adventures of the Robinson family and the bumbling Dr. Smith. However, when the monster of the moment would show, I would often either leave the room or hide my face in some way. The robot always warning us of the ‘danger!’ that was coming. In the end of course, all would be well, but those moments with monsters were frightening to me. We won’t even discuss the Alfred Hitchock movie The Birds. In the space of a few moments, monsters arrive and the mood and sensory perceptions change.
Over the space and time of passing years, I faced many monsters, but that is no different than anyone else. We all will face at least one, more often though it will be many, in our lifetime. In the facing we will win, lose or draw. The important thing is that we not back down. It is in the confronting of our monsters where we grow and find the strengths we have been given.
All it took was one sentence to rock my world, changing it forever. “Is James okay? I heard they found him deceased in his truck.” Knees buckle, breath is stolen and the world tilts. Then the battle of life afterward begins. Then, just past the three year anniversary of his passing, I hear, “Your lay off is permanent.” And in that space, was confusion, frustration, loss. Now, I had to begin again, in finding my place in this space and time.
But then, life is an ever changing journey were we will always be evolving, adapting, growing. When I first lost my job and thought it a temporary thing (because that was what I had been told) I sought ways to fill my time. No need to seek another job as I was going back after all. I decided to clean up this space. Over the course of time, with the help from my son when needed, the house and yard became a different place. Over the course of time, I began to come to grips with the, “they aren’t calling me back” realization. When I first lost my job, a friend told me that I needed to write. It was a message they had been given to give to me. I now had all the time I needed, I needed to write. Eventually I found my way back to this blog and have been sharing my thoughts and happenings on a regular basis.
But what is it, that I wish to fill this space? What words should flow from heart and mind to page?
Be strong in belief. Believe that there is a reason and a plan. God is still in control and even when we may not understand what is going on or why, it has purpose. No, I don’t understand why God allows things to happen other than the fact we are given free will and there are those who use it for evil.
Believe and have faith you are never alone. Even at your darkest, most lonely moments, you are not alone.
No matter what anyone else may say or try to get you to believe, you are worthy, you are important, you are beautiful, you are no less (or no better) than anyone else.
Have a heart filled with compassion for others. Be ready and willing to reach out and encourage and lift up others from where they have fallen.
Have and show the spirit of love. Love for others. Love for yourself. Love for God.
I believe, if you fill your space with that and other positive thoughts and actions, your time will be better, more peaceful. Not perfect, as this space and time isn’t meant to be perfect, but it will be better.