June Thirtieth Wasting Time or Using it Well?

The last day of the month, already. How have we so quickly reached the end of June preparing to move into July? I remember as a child laughing when I heard the adults talking about how fast time passed by. I’m not laughing now. I’m sitting here now, at 6:30 in the morning, listening to the radio and trying to get awake. I was offered green beans for mom if I go pick them. It isn’t my all time favorite activity, but its for mom. Summer is quickly passing, I may not get this same opportunity again. 

Its been almost four and a half years since my husband died. Almost two since my brother’s death. Both had spoken often of retiring. When they retired they were going to do this or that. Neither made it to that golden time of life. having worked so hard for so long, then be able to spend time playing. My husband would have been 64, my brother had just turned 60, both young. How had their life passed and ended so quickly?

 In a couple of months, Lord willing, I will be sixty-four. How did that time pass so quickly, even when there were times in my life I believed I would never see this time. But I have, somehow. Even as I have no idea how much more time the Lord has planned for me. What will I do with this time? It is passing quickly.

 When I was laid off from my job thanks to the pandemic, I suddenly had time on my hands. I believed what I had been told, I would be called back. What to do in the meantime? I started cleaning and clearing away. I’ve mentioned this before. I had long neglected my large yard and that was obvious. Large areas that had not been raked in years. Old logs that had meant to be firewood but never split. Tree limbs and who knows what, piled up in areas. A garage stacked with boxes, a storage building bulging with stuff not used in years but saved for that just in case scenario. All slowly and over the summer, cleared away.  It was time, it needed to be done before time ran out and I was called back, but I wasn’t and won’t be. It took a while for the mindset to clear, adjust and accept. Now I am looking forward wondering what to do with this time.

As it is, I am sitting here wondering, how could be over a year, since I have not worked? I sit here now, wondering, if I am wasting time? Am I missing opportunities to do worthy things? I’m glad I am here for my parents, but is there anything else I could be doing? I’m glad I have time to write words such as this, but could there be more? Could there be a better way, a different way to reach more people, to encourage, to uplift, to inspire more?

It only takes one match to build a fire, could one word, one write, build a fire of inspiration? Could one word encourage someone to step up and be the difference needed in a situation? Could one word, change a life? Time is passing quickly. I don’t look for my death, but I know it will come. What am I doing between the dash, to make my life one worthwhile? If when my time comes, someone were to look back over my time period, what would they remember? One who sought and encouraged better? Or one who wasted time and opportunity given. 

What about you? How are you using your time, no matter your age? Do you think you are using it wisely or could you do better? How do you think, you  would be remembered? How would you want to be remembered?

Life is a journey where the path won’t always be easy, but the time used in the traveling worthwhile.

About rebecca s revels

A writer, a photographer, a cancer survivor. An adventurer of the mild kind, a lover of the simple pleasures such as long walks and chocolate. A Christian unashamed of my faith and a friend who is dependable and will encourage readily. Author of three self published books with more waiting to find their way to paper. An advocate of good things, a fighter against wrongs.
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29 Responses to June Thirtieth Wasting Time or Using it Well?

  1. I have tried to make a difference through the work I have done and continue to do which is breathing life into communities. In my professional life I accounted for every moment of my time. I tend to be a bit more free with my time since being a consultant and trainer. I hope I am remembered as someone who cared. I think those who know me would say the same.

  2. BookWorm says:

    You are not at all wasting time! You have worked your entire life, now it’s time to follow your ambitions. Don’t measure how many years have passed, they only make you feel depressed, till your mind, body and soul are healthy, you are all right!
    Thanks to online classes, I am able to give myself more time to blog and read.
    Stay happy!😃

  3. Webb Blogs says:

    Definitely makes me think. I have been working and trying so hard on making some positive changes in my life. Hopefully I will be remembered as one that lived life to the fullest and not as one that was to scared.

    • I understand that. My son tells me that I need to get out more, do more, talk to more people. He has called me a hermit and that I’m hiding. That is one thing I am having to fight against. The fear of what if..

      • leendadll says:

        There’s a reason they say to live every day like it’s your last. If it was, or if you only had a week left, is there anything you’d regret not having tried or done? If so, start doing those things!

      • If I had the dollars, I would be on a cross country trip visiting all those sights on my bucket list and what ever else I passed along the way. Since I can’t do that, I visit places here. I am learning to get out more, when I find things that don’t cost anything or at least much.

      • Webb Blogs says:

        That is the same thing I have been fighting. The “what if’s”

      • Stubborn little bugs those what if’s

  4. Sarah Davis says:

    I am back at work but missing the freer days of working from home. I am really trying to keep the scaled back, unhurried aspects of the lock down with having to be in the office and having the world supposedly open back up. I am intentionally not over booking and focusing on the outdoor activities I did last year with my chosen few friends & family.

    I’m sorry for the reason, but I am jealous if your early retirement. You are where you are supposed to be. I have faith that I am also, but hopefully transitioning to my next place. I do want more time on the farm with my parents.

  5. leendadll says:

    I don’t expect to be remembered and I’m okay with that.

    Do you have a bucket list? Or things you wanted to do but never had the time?

    During my unexpected 4ys off work my illness caused too much fatigue to be productive. But limited funds, and pet care, were also big reasons I didn’t pursue any big dreams.

    • My late husband knew, I really, really, really wanted to see the Grand Canyon. Every time a run sent him anywhere near there he would call me and ask, guess where I am. I want to see the Redwoods trees, I want to visit Yellowstone. I want to see the statue of Liberty, visit Washington when there are no mass gatherings going on. I want to see Savannah, GA and Charleston, SC. I want to see Graceland in Memphis. I saw where there is a train ride that takes you across country where the cars are mostly glass where you can see everything. I want to be so far out west that I can stretch out on a blanket at night and gaze up into the eternity that is filled with stars.

  6. I went to Charleston back in the eight grade, kind of curious how it may have changed or see if I remember any of it. I love history, There are a lot of cities I would love to visit, New Orleans is another, to hear the Jazz and enjoy that food once again. I would love to go out west to see those remaining ghost towns or the monuments. Utah has some amazing parks. If my husband had lived, the plan as many have done in the past, was to purchase an rv and travel so I could see all these places and more. Obviously that didn’t happen.

  7. Thanks for asking! I want to help restore compassion, forgiveness, hope, grace mercy, love, joy, peace, purpose, truth, and understanding through my writings.

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