Day 120; Footnotes of Work in Progress

It isn’t just hikes up a mountainside.

I’m trying to be healthy. Well, healthier. Winter made me lazy even though I’ve been told that we don’t have a winter. And we don’t. Not like some places, but I have zero tolerance for what I consider cold. With that, winter made me lazy. I mean, I did stack wood and cut wood and carry wood to the house for the wood stove, but as far as actually being active, no.

But winter is over–winter better be over–and its time to reverse course and get un-lazy. I do not currently have any health insurance. I have tried and been told that I don’t qualify for those things you see online. So, I will just have to do the best I can to stay as healthy as I can.

First up, get moving. Get my backside out of this chair and move. I’ve gotten most of my yard cleaned up, leaves mulched, raked and dragged away. I’ve picked up most of the limbs that have fallen and stacked them for when and if I do a bon fire. I’ve helped get mom and dad’s yard in shape. And I’ve hiked the mountain on a semi regular basis. I am trying to get ten thousand steps a day. Its easy when I hike the mountain, not so easy when I don’t. Today I spent most of my time catching up on housework so I’ll have  just over eight thousand steps. I have also dug out this elastic band that may or may not supposed to be a jump rope, but I’m using it as a resistance band. Since I no longer work, meaning no lifting, pushing, pulling, dragging, my arms are getting a bit saggy. That won’t do.

There is also the fact that I signed up for several of those virtual million mile hikes for May. Okay, so a bit of an exaggeration but I did sign up for a couple. I’ll have to be better at keeping records.

It has been twenty-two days since I have had a piece of the hard candy of which I had become so addicted. I constantly, and I do mean constantly, had a piece of that candy in my mouth. I couldn’t pass by the dish that I wasn’t grabbing two or three pieces. I have it in my purse and in my Jeep. But I’ve been strong and haven’t given in and thought, ‘just one won’t hurt.’ I’m on a roll and hope to stay there.

But that isn’t enough. I need to work on the rest of my diet. When I purchased groceries last time I bought what I would need for a good salad. Today I got everything together and made that salad in a large container so all I have to do is dish out already made helpings. I love a salad that has different tastes and textures. I had a dish of that salad for lunch. It wasn’t enough, so I ate a grapefruit. That wasn’t enough so I ate a banana. I was craving junk food.

I haven’t had the craving too badly lately, but today, since I was trying to mentally prepare for this new style of eating, my body was demanding junk. Which it did not get. Supper was a bowl of chili that was left over from last night. I got that one right because my son kept going back for more. I know now what I’m making for the next jeep group chili cook off.. 

Ever since my battle with breast cancer, I have known about how important it is to follow a good healthy diet. Fruits, vegetables, nuts, I did the research, I knew the list. I just fell off the eat right wagon and just ate what was easiest. What is bad is, it really isn’t any more difficult to prepare the healthy, as it is to prepare the quick. And it tastes a lot better.

 And even though I read an article that said you can count coffee toward your water needs, I really need to start drinking more water.

That getting enough sleep has been a challenge. Right after my husband died I began to have problems sleeping. I would go to sleep, but I would awaken often during the night. Its very difficult to function when you haven’t had enough rest. I’m still working on finding the best way to get the most and best sleep. But I’m better than I was, that counts.

But I know also, that to be healthier you have to take care of your mental and emotional well being. 

Mental stimulation can be fun. I’m really getting better at finding my way around that rabbit hole. There are a lot of things to be learned waiting. You also learn how to discern fact from fiction, truth from fallacy. It gets you thinking. It also helps make you a better conversationalist. 

The emotional may be my most difficult challenge. I have been accused of building a wall. I won’t deny that. The thing there is multi faceted. I have had my emotions used against me. I am empathic and have to protect myself at times. I don’t always trust what I feel…or think I feel.

 To work on my emotional health, I am working on making friends and making myself leave the house to go spend time with living people. I am spending time in silence, listening to myself and finding out where I stand on various emotional points. I spend time in nature, those long hikes are good for physical and emotional well being. Walking down that trail, just me and the dog, not seeing anyone for ten, twenty, thirty minutes. Simply enjoying the peace, the sunlight, the breeze and the feeling of the healing taking place in my heart, mind and soul. Reading helps. Especially if it is a book that gives me insight to various thoughts and feelings. I also do spend a lot of time in prayer. I’ve mentioned before my small walking circle, that my son calls my thinking circle. I’ve had many prayerful  conversations while walking that circle. It makes a difference.

All of that though, is what is helping me. The work in progress that is me.  What works for me, won’t necessarily work for others. We all have to find out personal methods for being healthier, better, more in tune with ourselves.

About rebecca s revels

A writer, a photographer, a cancer survivor. An adventurer of the mild kind, a lover of the simple pleasures such as long walks and chocolate. A Christian unashamed of my faith and a friend who is dependable and will encourage readily. Author of three self published books with more waiting to find their way to paper. An advocate of good things, a fighter against wrongs.
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10 Responses to Day 120; Footnotes of Work in Progress

  1. China Dream says:

    what an interesting combination…LOL how was it? i like your idea of a walking circle, I used to do that, but got away from it when I remarried and moved over to Ontario.. life changed. now of course its changed again, now I walk the woodlands. You’re right, we all have to find our way, we will, I believe that when the time is right, we go rediscover our laughter, and a new awareness begins.

    • It was actually very good. I love having the different taste combinations in a salad. The circle here, is mostly for the times when I can’t get out in the woodlands. I prefer to be out among the trees whether its on the mountain or back on the property behind the house. But the circle is close, has a security light and is convenient. I concur in that we will rediscover our laughter.

  2. JoAnn says:

    I’ve been trying to get a handle on moderation when it comes to sweets rather than cut them out completely. If I cut them out completely then after a little time passes I just snap and go on a crazy binge! Moderation seems to work… just eating a little here and there… except when I have a bad day that’s when I really just want to go off on sweets again like crazy… I try to do other things though like listen to music…. which is far healthier! It’s a struggle for sure!

    • I agree, trust me, I’ve done the binge thing myself. I don’t refuse myself some sweets. My son will bring in a candy bar from time to time or my mother shares from her bounty. She buys those bags of mixed bite size candy, but only me and my son like the semi-sweet dark so we get that.

  3. I know I need to get on track myself, at my heaviest weight ever. I eat really healthy, drink tons of water, I don’t like sweets, but I need more activity and probably less wine!😏

    • When I was working I stayed very busy, rarely stopping for the shift. Not working its difficult to obtain and sustain that level. Especially when you have to motivate yourself.

  4. Stick with it, it is worth it to feel healthier. Thinking circle, huh? That sounds nice.

    • It is, but there is an annoying side to it. There is a narrow band of woods that is part mine and part neighbors. The neighbor has a mobile home over in a corner that he rents out. It seems that many times when I am out walking my circle, the renter will come out and make disgusting noises. Our cat hacking up a hairball doesn’t sound like that. When he gets no reaction he eventually goes back inside. Such is life right?

  5. I think it annoys him that he gets no reaction from me. It does benefit me that the man he rents from has been a long time acquaintance so he is limited in how far he can go.

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