To be honest, I did not relish the last bit of time spent. Mostly because to me, it was blasted cold outside. Now of course the roofer guy was completely comfortable and unfazed standing there in his lightweight jacket. Me, shivering in my heavy overcoat but not wanting to appear rude, because I know this guy’s work and he is the one I want up there making the repairs. But, I was freezing. Okay, maybe not freezing, as that is a tad bit of an exaggeration, but I was more than ready for him to head out for the materials he will need for the repairs.
I also do not relish the idea of what I am going to have to go about doing shortly. Heading out to the big box store for supplies in case of the ice they are predicting actually gets this far south. I fear though that since I couldn’t go yesterday when it was first mentioned that most things like batteries will be gone. The folks that were here back in 1989 when Hurricane Hugo came through remember those dark days of going without and they don’t hesitate to stock up.
Yep, so relish over on dictionary dot com has relish as, among other definitions; pleasurable enjoyment of something https://www.dictionary.com/browse/relish
I do NOT relish the thought of ice. Snow, I could tolerate (as if I have/had a choice) because snow has a beauty about it, a peace associated with it. Ice, while can have a beauty when the sunlight hits it just right, holds more dangers instead. Snow you can at least trudge through. Ice just sends you sliding along. Ice also is more apt to take down trees and power lines leaving you in the dark which is why I need those supplies. I also need to check my coffee supply. I also need to find a way to protect my back steps so I’ll be able to get out to feed the feral cats.
What I do relish, is the thought of the coming Spring. The warmer weather, the new growth. The being able to once again get outside without having to layer up to the point of being difficult to walk. Though I do love my boots.
Another thing I have come to relish, is my single status. Which seems somewhat odd. But it gives me a freedom and power I didn’t understand before. In a few weeks, I will have been widowed for four years. I have gone through and if honest, still will occasionally have a moment of grief, but not the weakening kind. A loss of what could have been, yes, but also a reminder of how far I have come and what I have gained. And continue to go.
As part of a couple you are limited on what you can do on your own. It is important that you take the other half of the relationship into consideration. Now, I can move about freely, taking my time in my ways. Seeking to do the things I enjoy or seeking to do the things that I feel important. I can do, not out of selfish want, but out of understanding it possible now.
There is no one directing my path other than my Lord. My every prayer being let my steps be in Your path. Let my actions be in step with Your plan. Let my words and actions bring glory to You. I do relish the day, when my time here is done and I stand before the Lord and here the words, “Well done, good and faithful servant.”