Today can go one of two ways, and it is up to me, as to which direction I allow.
When one is empathic and feels deeply the energies around them, it can overwhelm them to the point that their own energy suffers. Always ready to try to help and heal others, but neglecting themselves. The negative emotions a heavy weight that drags them down into a dark place. Wounded in spirit, it becomes easy to grow accustomed to the dark. One also can reach a point where they seek to avoid the negative energies and create a safe place away from it all.
I have been both. It is not a good place to find oneself. Yesterday’s times of introspection and with the beginning of my book project I decided to change that. it is beyond time, but, it is in time everything we do has its own timeline.
A project of any sort that is begun too early, before all plans and tools are in place, will struggle. A project attempted too late, will lack the enthusiasm and luster it could have born. It is when all is ready, when we are ready, that projects of what ever sort, succeed.
But we must be ready and willing, realizing the timing and seeing the opening door. We can read all the books, listen to all the lectures, and get the advice of every one we meet, all to naught if we are not aware of that door before us.
I have spent a lot of time physically alone since the Covid-19 pandemic began. Over the course of the time passing, I have been physically active. I have been spiritually active. I have been mentally active. have felt the stirrings of change and a beginning of something new approaching. After months of waiting, yesterday’s revelation arrived and the project was born.
As I worked, I understood the delay. God uses us daily for His purpose and His glory. We are not needed, He can do everything on His own, but as His children adopted into the family at our salvation, we should seek to work toward the building of His kingdom. Tools for Him. In what ever form He needs. But to be fully used, one needs to be broken. What? Yes. We are not a hammer or saw readily available to be picked up and immediately made of use. We are individual creatures with free will. A free will that can be stubborn, prideful and difficult in our ways. We often think we can accomplish what we face without assistance. That prideful spirit needs to be broken and our heart given an understanding of how it needs to respond. We have to understand that we are placing our own self aside and seeking a greater understanding of what is needed. Not only for our project, but for the way that project will affect those it touches.
Today, I can move forward with what was started yesterday, continuing to seek to be used and working toward the goal. Or today, I can allow the negative voices to drag me back to the dark where movement is limited and fear and pain stop all accomplishments. Its up to me, and the voice to which I listen.